Bar's Experience Deconditioning Essence Studying Human Design

Life is Happening

Life is Happening

 Life is just happening. We are just taking its shape somehow. It is an illusion, thinking that we can do something about what is happening, or not do anything, or that someone is in charge of something. It is all happening one way or another. The fact that we are able to see it, to accept it, is also not our choice.
Some people call it luck, but if I manage to be correct, or not if I manage to notice or to identify which kind of forces are acting at the moment, it’s not something that is controllable. It’s just something that is happening.I see my mind screaming and fighting to know what is happening, to label it, to structure it, to give it names and explanations, and using Human Design to do that. “This is because of that… and this is because of that…” Those are all stories. They’re interesting stories. It’s nice to share stories, but remember that it’s all motion, the life that is happening.
The Freefall
I found the realization that this embodiment takes time. I didn’t really receive these words in the beginning, “no choice” and “free fall.” I heard the words, but only over time did they slowly sink into me. This was just the beginning.I can see it in myself. I can watch this attachment to the story, to the explanation, and how scary and liberating it all is for existence. It’s also scary for the mind, not knowing. Over and over again, I fall into this trap of analyzing, of trying to reason and make sense out of things that don’t have reason or sense, or they do in a certain constellation, and then they fall apart and reconstruct in another sense.
Living in this space is extremely new for me. Sometimes it’s there and sometimes not. Sometimes I’m totally diving into my realizing and controlling mind which is taking over. There is nothing that I can do about it. It’s happening or not happening. This state of freefall is not something that I can choose to be in. It’s something that is happening to me. Living the Human Design way is not something that I can do. It’s something that is happening to me. That’s so liberating.
You’re Not Doing It
Deconditioning is not a process that one can force. We all have our own timing for when we realize, what we realize, and with whom we realize. We don’t know any of this, so this requires trust. Sometimes I am fully trusting and excited, but this is also dependent on my emotional wave. Life shows me different views. It’s so deep and inspiring, and sometimes completely not. It’s having this blink of realizing that you’re not doing any of it.
The illusion of doing it is a big joke, that I can do deconditioning, that I can choose to live my design. In a certain sense, maybe you can, but on a large scale, it’s just energy passing.I have found that, for me, it gave me a lot of humbleness, and also patience, and self-realization, that I cannot rush the process. I cannot push the process of others, no matter how smart, and how clever and brilliant, I am. Also, for myself, how strict, strong, or determined I am (and with a defined ego, it’s confusing!), I cannot do anything about it.
And, by not doing it, it is happening that way or another. I love observing, catching how people get things, when they get them, or not. I love observing myself, realizing things only when I realize them, not before and not after. I realize things only when life is showing me when it is passing through me, when I’m trusting that it’s exactly what it’s supposed to be.
The Contradiction, or Not
Discussing Human Design, and at the same time thinking that we are doing it, is a contradiction. It’s fine to be there in contradiction. It’s okay to believe in it, until at some point you stop, or not. I’m grateful when those moments arrive. It’s kind of a tiny light to a beautiful possibility of living the life, of expressing life without oppression, without stress, without fear. We all have our own timing. I love the different timing that we each have.Our life, its magic, and its unique expression are creating something. I wish you all a very rich experience, one where you can let go of doing it or of the idea of doing it. Take care and love to your process and where you are.
Awareness + / Contemplation Questions.
Have you experienced a time in your life when the forces took control, where life happened, and you had no control over the outcome?
What did this feel like? 
Did you find yourself fighting against it, or did you just let it unfold naturally?
Are you a person who tries to intellectualize everything, to attach explanations or definitions to the various aspects of life, or do you tend to mostly observe?
Perhaps you do a bit of both. If that’s the case, how does it feel in each mind frame? Do you prefer one way over the other?
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My experience with the undefined sacral

My exprience with open spleen 

The open spleen is one of the most fascinating centers to look at in my body graph. The spleen is completely open, and all fears and intuitions are passing through there.
The illusion of physical safety
I remembered my father told me that as a child I used to enter a road full of cars without even caring, with no fear, and with complete ignorance of the possible danger. When I grew up, those reckless decisions became an attachment and an unreasonable fear for survival.
A few months before I entered the Human Design experiment, I had a boyfriend with a defined spleen, and I remember feeling so safe around him, like I could do anything and be everywhere and at any time and under any conditions, acting like a complete Tarzan. But while alone I would not even consider those adventures.
After a few months of dating, I needed to leave my place, and I immediately jumped on the opportunity to live next to him, close to nature, in a yurt. Back then he had no running water and no heating system. He was almost self-sufficient with all physical needs. My mind found it charming, but my body suffered immensely.
The feeling of being protected, like I could do everything around him was so strong! Once I came back home, all the courage and curiosity vanished away, and I was glad to come back to my princess palace which is clean and warm, compared to him it even seemed spoiled.
Seeing conditioning in action!
After a while, I met the Human Design experiment and dove radically into it. Our road started to split, and he funny enough had almost all the same undefined centers I have. The genes are just trying to find the perfect match and with no Inner Authority, they succeed in doing so! Hilarious!
I was deep in my experiment and could not ignore the mechanics. I needed my space alone, to not be overloaded by sacral energy, to take care of my body, not to make any intuitive decisions, or to be under pressure.
I came to him and I said that I might take some distance for a while. He knew about Human Design, and he respected me while being convinced that I’m crazy 🙂 He was extremely kind but could not understand things that I experienced within my body while I’m around him.
The same day we broke up and I left his place. I remember all my body shaking, I started to cry, and I felt like a little baby being left alone in the dark. Like I might die every second moment, or as if someone will come in any moment and eat me. I felt unprotected and weak. Like I could literally not survive on my own. (although I had already been living on my own since the age of 18, including three years alone in foreign countries).
Because I had in my awareness the knowledge of Human Design, I knew those were only the voices of my open spleen speaking in their not self-frequency. And I could see clearly its effect on my body! Once I got home everything disappeared, the chemistry dissolved, and I felt relieved.
Beautiful – yet not mine
I understood that all the moments that I wanted to be spontaneous, to be out there in nature under every possible condition, while I trust my intuition, are simply false. I learned to respect the needs of my physical body, to take good care of it, knowing that my body is extremely sensitive, seeing over and over again that I can have fears with no proportion.
Nowadays I surrender to the fact that I am a little princess, and I need my palace. I need to be very attentive to the food I put in my body, to hot and cold weather, and even to the people that I meet. Now I just enjoy seeing people living in the wild, being intuitive, I enjoy seeing their trip while knowing that this is not mine. And I thank, once again, the Human Design knowledge and embodied experience, exposing to me time after time who I am and what I’m not, so I can enjoy my ride and live it fully.
Undefined and open spleen people – how do you experience it? What do you discover about yourself from it?
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My experience with the undefined sacral

My experience with the undefined sacral

The undefined sacral is a very interesting topic for me to share about. Over the years I discovered so many layers of wisdom and pain within this center.
I grew up in a house with a generator mother and brother. Both my father and I are Manifestors and of course, have undefined sacrals.
When I was told that I’m not here to work, I could not believe how deep this sentence goes, and I started an ongoing investigation of what “work” really means to me?
And if I’m not here to “work”, what am I here for?
Sacral Rehab
In the first two years of my Human Design experiment, I felt I was passing through a complete “sacral rehab” as I like to call it. I was reducing work, physical activity, interaction with people, all I was longing for was just time on my own while doing nothing, hanging around with, myself, or going crazy, but surely learning to be with whatever is and I managed to do so. To maintain my needs with really little work, to make space for my own, to spend most of my days floating in my own bubble.
Now I understand that cutting away from the world was the relatively easy part, and that actually the real sacral rehab is just starting! What do I mean by that? When I had no excuses, no outer distractions, no physical work that demanded much of my attention or time, then I had to meet all the thinking patterns, pain, memories, dark places hidden in the undefined sacral.
I remember that one of the most powerful thoughts I had is “ life is happening outside, around people in constant activity. If I’m not there I’m not alive”.
If I’m not working and producing, meeting with people, who am I then?
I felt confusion, self-doubt, loneliness, fear, and disorientation, while I allowed myself not to be available.
I knew I was passing through a very deep transformation. Every day I discovered a little piece of my real energy, every day I discovered a sacral addiction. I could recognize it in the physical body and mental body. I remember being very tired and getting exhausted easily. I remember how weird it felt to be so young yet so tired!
But for the first time in my life, I did not try to solve it, thinking that something was wrong with me. I knew I wasn’t sick. I knew that I was healing from one of the most powerful conditioning we have as non-sacral beings.
After 2-3 years,  I discovered new energy rising within my body, I felt like the first part of the rehab was over, and the resting and investigation became a wisdom resource. My main questions became how to channel and navigate energy correctly? How could I be efficient and organized enough to use my beautiful life force?
I have energy because I’m alive, because I’m here, and my energy is indeed special and different, and I have to treat it like that!
I learned to be attentive to all the things that give me energy, and all the things to take my energy away: food, people, working space, inspiration input, physical activity, resting time, physical environment – I saw everything through the lens of what gives me energy and what takes away the energy?
I didn’t feel bad anymore saying no, setting my boundaries, having enough sleep, working hours that were fitting for my physical condition.
I feel like I started to master the art of quantities, which would increase quality. I know there is still a long way to go, but I feel my body is cleaner and clearer every day. I don’t experience burnout anymore. I recover fast. I feel vital and inspired more than ever.
And I’m looking forward to using this energy and to keep on expanding.
I also know that it didn’t happen in one day. I had to go through many days of emptiness, tears, facing a lot of my fears.
Now I see the sacral condition as a source of pure wisdom. All the undefined sacral beings are possessing this beautiful precious gift, which is handling energy correctly, efficiently, and maximizing quality.
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To know my ride, to ride my ride, to love my ride.

To know my ride, to ride my ride, to love my ride

This weekend, as I was driving it was a sunset moment, the roads were kind of quiet and I felt like – this is it!
This is Human Design for me!
It is driving. It’s seeing my own body in space and learning out of the experience. It’s seeing the view change, seeing the people coming and going, my emotions, my thoughts, my feelings and practicing the mechanics. Seeing the mechanics.
Learning through movement.
What I see happening is that I can sit inside my car and study everything about the mechanics of the car without using it.
That actually my real learning is happening when I drive the car, when I check if there is enough air in the wheels, if the steering wheel is moving smoothly, if I have enough gasoline, if the windows are clean or not.
I need to check it for real just because I drive, and while I drive I can hear the noises in my car or I can hear the different songs that play out on the radio.
Looking backwards
I understand looking backward, now. Before I met Human Design and before I knew my inner mechanics, I was hiding from life. I was hiding from interactions, from people, honest decision making, from taking my real place in life because I was afraid and I did not know how I operate.
I was afraid of losing myself among others and I didn’t know what to trust within me. I did not know to separate what is me and what is the other, and it kept me locked within my own cocoon. Slowly I was shrinking and getting cold and lonely.
Luckily Human Design came and slowly but surely I saw how to start to open up and start to take my place in the world, as myself.
I dare to move, to drive around, to open up to people because I have my own ground. I start to feel my own body and trust it.
What I see when I meet people, and I am within my own experience, I see our duality of pain and happiness, the duality of mind and body, the duality of the physical plane and the spiritual plane, the duality of me and you.
I see that everything can co-exist.
I could not feel it before, I only knew it as a concept but now it’s an experience. It’s evident and it’s tangible.
I can see that things can appear and disappear together and that there is a place for everything.
I start to feel my own place. Therefore, I can give place in my life to other people. I can give place to other frequencies within my awareness.
This process is happening to me through making decisions, through actions.
Through literally taking my car and driving, moving in the world, talking to people, interacting and daring to choose and change every day.
No matter what I know about Human Design and about my chart, it does not count for me if I cannot live it out and if I cannot experience my life fully.
Meeting other cars
Human Design is helping me to make this ride on the road smooth and safe, interesting, and inspiring. Being on the road is for me. Meeting the people that are for me.
Once I know the mechanics, I can just experiment with it, I can play with it, and I can trust it.
When I drive in my own car and I look out the window, I see other cars, and I don’t care if they drive faster or slower, or if they’re more expensive or if they crash.
When I look outside and I see other cars, either I find that they are relevant to me and to my process, and I get inspired, empowered, and my experience gets richer, or I find they have no value for me.
But if I do not remain on my own ride, I cannot enjoy other people. places, interactions.
Only my road allows it to happen. The road that is exactly for me.
To know my ride, to ride my ride, to love my ride.
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The two entities that I am here to watch and live.

The two entities that I am here to watch and live.

I want to share about the controlling and organized mind. I have the 21 gate in the defined ego center but it is in the black. That 21 gate always wants to control and to make an order and to put limits. So this is not me, this is my personality, it is here for others.
This is the spoken voice in my head and it is funny to see that whenever my body experiences something, whatever it is, this controlling mind will come and want to organize the experience. It will want to understand what is wrong and what needs to be fixed in that experience for the next time.

It’s amazing that I can actually see all the black as it appears in my gates and channels and to see how they speak through my personality becoming a spoken voice in my head that dictates what needs to be done.
If you have the information and the interest you can follow all the black gates and channels, and to see them in your life. See when those thoughts are passing in your brain to see when you talk those thoughts to others and yourself.
The funny thing is that this is not you, not me, this is our personality. This is made for the other; it is not made for us to make decisions from. It is hilarious because those black definitions can be very intelligent and very convincing!
My mind is very smart and very intelligent and can tell amazing stories and explain things in a marvelous way but this is not the body!
This is not who is here to make decisions. The mind does not know anything about me and what is good for my life and what is good for my journey. The mind of nobody is here to make decisions for us.

The “Mind” in Human Design?
Ajna – We have the Ajna mind, the consistent thought process, which makes life as concepts and stories.
Personality – We have a mind which is the black channels and gates in our design, who we think we are!
Colored in White – We have the mind which is coming from the undefined/ open centers and gates and channels, that is exemplifying the outside and becoming not-self or wisdom.
Altogether they are creating a separate entity of what we think, what we are convinced that we are. And it’s amazing to see this duality! To see that we have this character that we think is us and we try to serve this character, this entity. This basically means that there is also a different entity, the red that is in our body, it is life, it is the authentic self.
The red, the body, the self It is the unexplainable movement of love and transformation that goes through us. And these two entities are not friends in the beginning of our lives, just not friends. The body wants something and the personality wants something else. The defined centers want something and the undefined centers want another thing and we are here just to watch it in play.
I am here to watch it, and you?

This that we watch does not mean we can do anything about it. The fact that I see my mind taking me to action doesn’t mean that I can do anything about it. I can just observe it and forgive it.
Noting: This is the frequency of mind taking over. I just saw that!
We can also see your body taking action and suddenly talking without thought or moving or hugging or loving or crying and also noting: wow what a movement without thought, this is so beautiful and I am just watching it.
We are here to watch it.

For me, this is the binary consciousness and the endless stories of body and mind. At a certain moment when the body is taking over completely then the mind becomes a beautiful outer authority, and tells beautiful stories to others, for others, It is no longer pushing us to action.
We can never ignore the mind or delete it but it is no longer the boss. It is no longer telling us what to do. Even if it is telling us what to do, the body answers:” yeah dude I hear you but not today!”. And maybe at a certain point, it just becomes a white noise like it’s there but not very important.

I am just seeing the movement of body and mind and it is basically endless. Endlessly seeing the body wants to do something and the mind telling it otherwise. Seeing the body still and the mind saying:” No, you have to do something!”. Or the opposite, the body has a lot of energy and wants to move and talk and the mind says:” No! stay here, stay still”. Hilarious, yeah?

We all have this schizophrenic syndrome, we are all this and that.
There is no need to separate the mind or try to make the mind disappear. Just embrace all of it as one experience. The human experience.

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What does waiting mean to you? Simplicity is key, and the mind doesn’t like it!

What does waiting mean to you? Simplicity is key, and the mind doesn't like it!

I would love to share some new discoveries and contemplations about an essential aspect of Human Design that is waiting. What is waiting? Why do we wait? Why do I wait? What does waiting bring to my life?

Waiting is an active state. It’s not a passive state of waiting for something to happen. It’s more so a state of deep awareness, a deep alert state. I stopped seeing waiting as a curse. I think that at the beginning of my process, and maybe even until now, I felt like waiting was acting out of fear, putting everything off and ignoring the problem, acting as if everything was okay.Now I realize that waiting is an opportunity for me to sink more into my body. It allows me to see different perspectives. As a 6/2 profile, this is one of the most precious qualities I will ever have – seeing the perspective. As an emotional manifestor, my gift is having the perspective of emotions, the depth of emotions.

So, basically, waiting is a big gift. Waiting doesn’t mean that I’m sitting in my room and staring out of the window (sometimes I am), but it means that I’m not rushing to know the answer, not rushing to understand what things mean, not rushing to take action. It’s being in a floating, suspended mode and being okay with that. When you wait, when I wait, sometimes the fear and a lot of thinking patterns, hard emotions, all kinds of stories and memories, and traumas are there. Waiting actually touches all the places that want to be awakened, all the places that are hurting because when you do nothing, you feel more. While waiting, I’m living my life practicing sports, reading, studying, spending time in nature, with friends. So it is active in a way, but I’m not rushing to know anything. And for me, this is one of the key elements in Human Design that you trust your body. I trust my body, I trust my inner authority, I trust my aura mechanics and I know that when the time is right, the body will do what it needs to do. When the time is right, I will say what I need to say. When the time is right, initiation will come through me. And it’s amazing to see this state of waiting in comparison to the mind that likes to analyze, judge, measure, blame and figure everything out.

The more we approach 2027, the stronger the frequency of nothingness will get. It will be all about the individual pulse: “I don’t know, I don’t know until I know.” The closer we get to 2027, the more present the frequency of mutation will be on Earth. And mutation means melancholy, void, a blip, black matter. It is what it is. And it’s scary. It’s scary because we are coming from the Cross of Planning, which is about organizing and doing, it’s about patterns and our family, our people. Everything feels secure in that cross. And now we are coming to the Cross of Sleeping Phoenix. And here you’re either asleep or awake.

I’m starting to feel the deep waiting in my daily life when my body doesn’t do anything. Then my mind comes in and says: “Yeah, but you have to. Think about money and people, and this and that.” And my body responds: “What? No, you don’t have to. It’s not here, the energy is not here so you don’t need to do it.” I think this is one of the most beautiful gifts of Human Design. When you surrender to your strategy and authority (waiting for a response, waiting for an invitation, waiting to initiate, waiting for a lunar cycle), you start seeing the natural flow of life. It’s like when a flower blooms and when it dies – there is no story about it, there is no rush, there is no judgment. It’s just that when a flower blooms, it blooms, and when it dies, it dies.

And it’s amazing how humankind has all kinds of stories and manipulations, conspiracies, and judgments about this and that. And it’s great, stories are great. I love stories. But then there’s a difference between stories and decision-making. It becomes a real mess if a story becomes the source of decision-making. But when there’s a decision making and there’s a story that we tell along the way as a passenger’s movie (the body is moving and the passenger is watching), this is something else. At least, for me. I can see myself, when I tell a story and try to find a solution out of the story or when I just tell a story as if I was looking at a flower. I just look at the flower and describe the flower – I don’t explain why and why not the flower is what it is.

I’m sharing these waiting insights with you and it’s so simple. Just so simple. Waiting. And at the same time, the mind hates it. The mind hates waiting: all the undefined centers, channels, and gates push us to action. They push us to do, to know, to understand, to make sense. But we have no clue. We have no clue about what is going on here. We can only know what is happening now. For example, I’m sitting here and writing to you. What’s next? What was before? I don’t know.

I was listening to Ra’s lectures while preparing for my course and he said that Human Design was difficult for clever and smart people because of its simplicity. The more clever you are, the more challenging this process is because you try to make sense, you try to explain. I know I tried to explain. There’s naïveté in a good sense in being stupid and dumb. There are just two modes: I wait or I do. What’s in between them is just a story. I do or I wait. It’s simple. It’s what drives so many people nuts: Human Design is so simple. The system itself, the way it’s built, the knowledge is complex, but the actual practice of Human Design is simple. I agree that sometimes we need more explanation. Our brain, our Ajna wants more explanation, more complexity, more depth. It’s okay. It’s okay to have depth, it’s okay to have complexity. But it’s good to make sure we are not drowning in this complexity and depth. In the end, it’s simple. You do or you don’t, you wait or you act. You can add layers of complexity, depth, explanations, stories, or whatever your trip is on top of it, but the basic is: I do or I wait. This is it.

I wish I could give you something more glamorous, but it’s really just that simple. No big secrets for daily practice. For the knowledge itself, yes, there are a lot of secrets and juicy stuff, amazing details, endless keynotes. I love it! This is why I teach it, but it has to go with the practice. The practice is exposing the complexity. We need opposites. If all had been so complex and mind-blowing, there would have been no balance. So the simplicity of strategy and authority together with the complexity of the knowledge in creating this amazing mix. On one hand, everything is simple, on the other hand, everything is complex. They can coexist.
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The Deconditioning and Healing process, being ready to experience pain and pleasure.

The Deconditioning and Healing process, being ready to experience pain and pleasure.

I would like to share about deconditioning process and the healing that happens through deconditioning.For me, Human Design is not a healing therapy. It’s not that I am here to fix anything. But healing happens through me when I become myself flowing my body.
I can find pain and fear stored in each channel and in each gate, and in each center in my bodygraph from all the moments when I hadn’t respected who I was and had taken distorted information into my body. There is pain that resulted from the decisions that I have made according to that information I had taken in. This is stored in my physical body, in my memory, in my cells.

And once I start respecting myself and my body, those things will be asked to heal and they will require attention, love, and safe space. Human Design is the mechanics for me to see that happening, but once I respect the mechanics, something else starts to awaken.
I knew that after meeting the knowledge, my life isn’t going to change in a split second – there will be no unicorns and nothing will magically become perfect. Maybe the opposite. Maybe more pain will come to life, more memories, more conflicts and anger, bitterness and frustration, more disappointment. As the body will take all the poison out on the surface for me to see and experience it clearly. And it’s not that I am doing any of it, not that I need to focus on it. It simply happens when I make decisions from my body, as a cleansing process.
I wish to be kind to myself, to be compassionate, and to forgive myself because it is not an easy trip. The more the pain presents itself, the more love, attention, and care are needed.I hope that you’re in the environment with the people that see you as you are and that they are not judging you, not trying to change you, but rather they are acknowledging the pain you’re going through, knowing it is part of growing and transforming too.

I am here for it when I meet to support people on the HD path. As I deeply understand that it’s not easy to go through this – to fight the disease of the mind. It is, indeed, a disease. Along the way, I met physical pain. The body reacts once started living as myself. The body talked, the body expressed its scream because for so many years I have neglected it. It doesn’t mean that I become completely sick, but the more I sink into my authority and my body, the more pain wanted to come out. and it came out, if it happens to you too I wish you to simply notice it, witness it. As it is.

Human Design is a physical experience. It’s not mental knowledge. Once again, it’s a physical experience. The physical experience of this body has emotional pain, intellectual pain, physical pain, spiritual pain along with pleasure. It’s not that everything is about pain. Pleasure will be there hand by hand with pain. It’s like a death and rebirth cycle. Once I entered the Human Design experiment, I started to die. All the things that I have thought about myself and my personality are constantly dying. All the things I have identified myself with are dying and I am witnessing it. And I am witnessing my own birth as well. And yes, there’s pain there. Yes, there is also pleasure and joy, and excitement, while I am actually rebirthing myself. While I am witnessing my own rebirth.

It is beautiful and it is powerful to go through life as one thing and to become another being through deconditioning and to return to who I was in the first place, to simplicity of the body.

I wish us to go through it completely and to transmit the knowledge to others with grace and compassion so that our children don’t need to repeat the same process and can have their different processes to go through.
I’m sending a lot of love to your process, to what you’re going through, and to letting you know you’re not alone in this. Give yourself a loving nest where you can rest and heal while going through this process. It’s a 7-year process and it’s continuous, not like the little flu. It will transform your life. It is transforming your life right now so see if you can be kind to yourself while it happens.
Lines Relationship

The 6 line phase – Reflection-Feedback-New

The 6 line phase - Reflection-Feedback-New

Two years ago I created an online course based on the 6 lines in the hexagram, on how to build a new business, following the qualities of each of the lines.Creating this course made me fall in love with hexagram and the magic that is being born in each line.Here is some wisdom from the 6 line.
I am in the last chapter. I can say that the business is ready, the creation is ready, I did all the process from the foundation into the natural gifts, into trial and error, into communication and publicity, into the seeing far into my vision. And the product and the service, the creation is out there.

Things are running for me. I gave my first gift or one of my gifts. Now I feel that the process is completed. The cycle is over. And when I feel that it is over, I feel I am done with this kind of creation and I feel the urge to go to a new cycle, or maybe you already felt it during the first cycle, the opportunities already call me out, Iu feels the excitement, the longing, the passion, to have another creation process, another product, another vision, another retreat, something is calling me once again.

So, before that, before I start going to my “Dream and Dear state”, and go through the process all over again, I recommend that I sit for a moment and reflect. Reflect about all the things I have done, all the processes I have gone through, and just feel it in my body. I can even take a pen and paper to write, or talk with a friend, and just recall all the process from the beginning until now.
And then give me feedback. See what I want to keep and what I want to let go of. See where I did things that I am not really happy with and where I did things thaT I am really proud of. So, it is good before I continue, to just reflect and to get feedback, on myself, to be honest to myself, to look at myself in the mirror and give some compliments. Of course, I celebrated my Impact already! But as well, give some corrections, some honest feedback like saying:” ok, this can be improved, this I would like to improve, this I made more or less, I need this or that for my next creation” Because like this I am growing.

And I really encourage myself not to copy-paste what I did already, to ask for expansion. If I did something and it worked well, beautiful! I can create something similar, but I am not the same person that created that thing. I already transformed. I am already bigger. I have more space within my vessel and within my heart. My potential has expanded. So also, the demand for more quality, for more depth, for more sharpness is there. Can I recognize it? Can I acknowledge it? Can I accept it?
Maybe there are some fears, maybe some excitement and emotions. So I just sit with all the sensations and just allow….the universes within me, towards the new creation, towards the new cycle.

So, I check that the cycle is well wrapped. If I want to close it, if it is possible to close it energetically, practically, emotionally, mentally. It is like a breakup with a boyfriend or a girlfriend or it is like leaving a house. I want to check that everything is closed until the last detail, so you can start a fresh start with a relaxed heart and lungs. So, it is about stopping for a moment, reflecting, taking a time to reflect, giving myself honest feedback, and preparing for a new cycle.

Because I am wiser now, I am smarter now, I am faster now, I am bigger now. Maybe I want to ask for more money. Maybe I want to give a bigger content. Maybe I want to go one step further with my publicity. Maybe I want to do a different collaboration. I am asking myself to expand. I am never pushing into extreme expansion. I am always encouraging progressive change. Yes, change, transform, but progressively. One step after the other. Consistently progress.

So, are you ready for your new cycle? What do you feel about the new creation? Do you have any new ideas, new inspirations? It is always good to have something new waiting for you, so you say: ok, now this is done, I am done, what is next? I would say what is next with excitement. With a big smile. And if there is nothing, ok, let the emptiness be. Don’t be afraid of it, you know you already did it once. It is just waiting for you to do it again. If you are receptive. If you are ready to receive it. If you are ready to give. A new cycle will be there for you. Are you ready?
Gates Relationship

Gate 22 – The gift of listening & appreciating expression

Gate 22 - The gift of listening & appreciating expression

The 22 gate, the gate of the listener. It is an individual gate and it is going out of the solar plexus and pointing towards the throat center and I have it in my design sun. Since I entered the Human Design experiment I am constantly looking and observing and being aware of that frequency. The way I see it through my design and my life is the gift of the listener. When I say listen I mean listen to all realms. Listen from the most spiritual place that exists to see things that are not seen and understood to the most physical and evident frequency that there is. It is a range of listening and when I listen to other beings and when I listen to myself I feel like there are a lot of tracks being played. It is not only one track, it is a lot of tracks that I am hearing and listening to. It is a multimedia experience of acoustics and layers of information that I sift through my physical ears but also the unseen ears that I have.
This is a big gift, the ability to listen. To deeply listen to the soul, the body to the mental and emotional realm to the energetical realm is not so easy because when I listen I also hear unpleasantness and pain and sorrow of myself and others. I also hear the beauty and the potential and the light that does exist.

Having it located in the solar plexus means it is constantly containing pain and pleasure, passion and lack of passion. It is the ability to listen to the range between pleasure and pain, passion and lack of passion, so all the melodies that exist in this range.
What I learned is how to listen deeply to myself and others and how much I love to receive deep listening and how much I appreciate when people can deeply listen without the need to constantly react and comment on what I say. I believe that listening is a great healing tool for the other to hear itself and when I talk to hear myself. So listening is like a container of the frequencies and allowing the frequencies to be and swim inside that acoustic space. Using the voice as a musical instrument to play whatever is inside and the listener is the audience and it is allowing this experience to happen and the magic to appear. We are not talking about good or bad, we are talking about whatever is there needs to be expressed.
The 22 gate is waiting and listening for a uniqueness for something that will mutate its soul, its individuality that will awaken it for transformation.
So when I listen I listen and look for uniqueness. I look for this special sound that makes me feel expanded, like something new that I have never heard. It can be in the melody or the emotional realm. It can be the organization of words or a concept.
So as a 22, I am looking or eager for that frequency that will transform me individually. Something that I can ponder about later that I can take into my emotional wave and that will enrich my individual process. Therefore I am very sensitive to my own way of expression and to the way of expression of others. I am attentive to the voice frequency and the words and to the way I choose how to organize my expression,
I am very sensitive to it and deeply appreciate people who can communicate who they are through words. It does not matter if I agree or disagree with what they are bringing, I just feel very connected to the authenticity that is flowing out of them and how they express themselves.
This is one of the gifts of the 22 gate and I guess the gifts will continue to unfold in my experience.
I wish all of us to contemplate and cultivate the ability to listen and to ask for listening when we need it. Just a simple act of sharing with no response and to receive that amazing container that we can give to each other.
Deconditioning Emotional & Non-Emotional Beings Essence Relationship

Who can not wait for me is not meant for me

Who can not wait for me is not meant for me

One of the biggest observations that I’ve had so far in the Human Design experiment is knowing that I am here to respect myself and respecting myself means to wait for my inner authority. This is the deepest respect that I can give to myself.This is one of the biggest expressions of self-love that I found for myself.
If other people cannot wait for me when I need more time I realize they simply aren’t for me. They are most likely amazing people and generous and loving and special human beings. If they are naturally in their behavior and state of mind they can not wait for me then on some level they cannot, right now, love me as I am.
If they are pushing me to act, if they are judging me or blaming me for the time I need it is not easy for me and is a message for me saying “well maybe they are not for you Bar”.
The people that can wait for me naturally that are not pushing me or judging me or blaming me for not behaving in a way they want me to behave, in a way they are saying to me “you are loved as you are, I am loving you as you are, you are welcome in your own timing.”
Especially for me as an Emotional Manifestor, this is very important because I really move on my own inner timing. Sometimes I really do need a long time to feel if something is right for me or not. For me, if someone is not respecting the waiting in a way it is a message that is saying: I am not trusting life, I’m not trusting divine timing, I’m not trusting that everything has its own place to exist and its particular timing.
For me, it is a deeper message than: You’re not fast enough or you’re not applying life the way I want it to be. This is a deeper message for me that says this person cannot let go of his/her mind.
This is something I am struggling with for myself, not allowing the mind to control my life so I don’t need people around me who still use the mind as an authority. In a way, it is even better for me to be around people who first, don’t respect the timing for me to move and second of all-seeing or thinking that the mind is an authority.
Again those people are not bad people or have bad intentions they are most probably amazing human beings but what I am asking myself are those people for me? Are they part of my specific journey? Do they fit the way I see life and want to behave in this life? Sometimes it is not easy to see people leaving and feel people abandoning my energetic field.
But I am here to trust my body, that it is leading me, my inner authority is leading me and whatever needs to happen is happening, maybe at the price of changing the environment and the people around me.
Whoever cannot wait for me is not for me. Maybe the mind wants to keep everyone around me and to be nice and polite and keep everything perfect and in place but the body knows and has no fear.
The body is completely satisfied with what is happening right now and the body trusts. Most probably it is the mind struggling and wanting me to be something that I am not. I am encouraging you to let go of people who cannot see you, understand you, or respect your inner authority. I am wishing myself to let go with love and compassion. It is not about them being wrong or not true to who they are. They are doing their journey and I am doing my journey so may we all be respected and respect the timing of the other. If there is no mutual respect maybe things need to change and unfold differently.