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5 years in Human Design experiment-Deconditioning

5 years in Human Design experiment-Deconditioning

I am an Emotional Manifestor. 6/2 Profile. Cross of Separation – 5 years in Human Design experiment – Deconditioning.

FIRST-YEAR

The first year I met Human Design, I remember feeling in love and that I was saved! The knowledge and its accuracy touched my heart deeply and reached every cell in my body. I had three professional readings where I got the basic foundation of my design. While day and night, I was listening to audios, watching videos, and taking in whatever I could.

At that time I had a generator partner, which funny enough almost completed all my undefined centers! I informed him that we could not share a bed any longer. I also explained to him how I’m here to initiate, so I would try not to respond and to be spontaneous from now on because otherwise, it would simply be unhealthy for me.

Slowly, our relationship transformed until we met only when I initiated something. I remember I told him “if you need to be with another girl, go ahead. I cannot give you what you need, and I cannot be available for you as you need.” While saying it I remember crying like hell! Crying out of relief; crying out of the pain that now was released. The mind screamed and the body smiled.

I talked to my parents as well, and I told them about Human Design. I explained to them what it meant for me to be a Manifestor. They didn’t understand what I was doing or what I was talking about. My speech back then was cold and mechanical, and I guess it was hard to understand for people not in the experiment. Although my experiment led to some inner conflicts within the family, I kept loyal to my path. I had no choice, and I knew this process was way bigger than me. In the first year, I saw everything through Human Design eyes. I was breathing it, and I wanted to talk with everybody about it. I wanted everybody to understand how great it is.

Every single day was a completely new discovery. Don’t get me wrong! It was not nice or calm in any way. All the anger was rising to the surface, as well the tiredness of the body. Seeing the body, that is controlled by the mind, and how it suffers immensely. The wish to be alone. The conflict between the inner and outer world.

After half a year I met my guide, who helped me to ground my frequency within the body and to understand that none of it is mental. That no matter what I know actually matters, it’s actually how I live and let go of control. It takes time anyway! We met regularly for one-on-one sessions, and I became a Living Human Design Guide under his teachings. I’m so grateful to have met him, and to follow him until I felt confident within myself. In my view, the wisdom of human interaction cannot be replaced by any book or audio!

The mind made me chase after more and more Human Design material, with knowledge, it is obvious now, that I could not take in half of it! Because my body still is very so condensed and the knowledge could not stay at that level of embodiment. It was at this time I started to record my process and share videos on YouTube (some of the first videos are still there online). I had no one to talk to about my process except my guide, and I felt I needed an outlet of expression about what was happening to me, which was so meaningful, painful, lonely, and extremely right for me.

SECOND-YEAR

In the second year of the Human Design experiment, I met my ex-partner, an Ego Manifestor. Back then, I was living in Europe, and he was living in Israel. We both were in the experiment, studying, and being curious about the mechanics. It felt like two souls that finally met in the body, we could talk for hours about our experience, about what we discovered, and what we observed around us. I felt like I found a partner in this journey who could understand and relate to this way of life. We moved in together and lived in Europe. I realized, looking back, that all the things were examined in real-life, true relationships through constant human interaction. I was not alone anymore and I could not hide anymore. I was constantly exposed!

 We talked day and night about Human Design. I wish I could record all the beautiful insights that we had together, all the depth, and all the brilliant perspectives that we talked to each other about this year.I was inspired to see how we created our own Human Design language, and Human Design perspective on daily life events. I’m so grateful to have had this time of expression, of hearing myself talking freely, expressing my Manifestor flow, and allowing my Manifestor partner to do the same, to perform, for me, his beautiful song.

Being in love with him evoked so much pain within me, and all the anger that I thought that I could hide came to the surface right away!  I understood that no matter what I know about Human Design, it could not save me from dealing with my deepest fears and pain of the past, and all the traumas I accumulated while not being myself.

 All of my wounds opened. I was crying, screaming, falling apart over and over again. The mind could not understand why I would stay in this relationship, and the body knew that there is still a long way together. Once I allowed myself to love myself through the path of Human Design, to love another being, I could see that love only asks to heal. I could see the mind’s stories all the time, and how they pushed me to action; how the mind is always putting everything out there on the other, blaming, shaming myself and the other.

It was one of the most difficult years in my life, I loved and hated with such power. I met my extremities, and I died so many times. The mind wanted to keep control but I could not, the love kept pulling me up on my fit, the body kept on bringing me back to my track, although the mind insisted and argued and wanted to organize and rule every aspect of my life! It was a constant war! Fight for purpose!

 Once again I realized, there is absolutely no choice, and that struggle between the mind and the body just becomes more and more evident. At the end of this year, my partner and I moved together to Israel, both tired. Now I know that only an Ego Manifestor, with his special design, could bring me back home after so many years of isolation, loneliness, and seeking for answers outside of me. His energy brought me to my homeland, to my parents, to my language. I see now that only a man that has the same energetic power that I have could show me that I’m worthy of love, to embrace my Manifestor side, to reflect me that my sweet inner child could heal, to feel that I am a longer stranger, that my heart can open, that I can be a part and still be me.

THIRD-YEAR

The third year of the Human Design experiment was a year of recovery. I had all my wounds opened, and I felt like I was bleeding. My partner and I lived separately, so we could both have some space and some quiet, after a very intense year together. In this year I reached out for therapy, and the therapist gave space to all the emotions and pain coming out of the undefined centers. From all the years I could not be me, that I didn’t know what it meant to be me, I spoke about anger and loneliness.

I knew I had my Inner Authority, so I was not afraid to receive an outside perspective. Actually, I was glad to not only speak the Human Design language. And I felt there was no need for me to communicate only through Human Design mechanics anymore. I know I can speak it and this is enough for me. I stopped talking about Human Design with most people, and only with people who are already into it or they wanted to hear about it from me.

This year I started to connect with two people who are teaching living and transmitting Human Design in Israel. It was beautiful to meet more people that were experimenting and to get to know them through the body. I realized that although two people or more life and teach Human Design, it does not mean that we will connect or fit each other. The fractal line is way more complex than just the common ground of knowledge.This year I let go completely of dance teaching, which was something that I had been doing for the last 4 years. All my life has been dedicated to dance and movement so far. I kept on meeting more and more Manifestors for one-on-one sessions until I realized it’s time for me to initiate my first Living Your Design course for Manifestors! And so I did.

I met 13 beautiful Manifestors from all over the world who were willing and curious to meet up together and to learn the basics of Human Design and dive deeper into their experiment, I am in touch with most of them until today.  At the end of this year, my partner and I moved in together once again. We were ready once again to dive into a more intimate daily encounter, and we did everything we could to prepare us for safe, solid ground, like building a nest on the physical and emotional planes.

FOURTH-YEAR

The fourth year of the Human Design experiment was a mixed feeling year for me. On one hand, I felt like the process of coming home to Israel was completed. I spent days at home resting and creating. My relationship with my partner had the right conditions to grow, I kept on teaching Human Design and meeting people for private sessions, but something in me asked for a deeper change again, I was not sure what it was? 

I started two Human Design collaborations as I wanted to work with others and build a little cozy supportive community, one of them I left at the early development of the project, and the other one last for a couple of months and I had to let go because finally, I could grasp what it means to be a Manifestor, and how much impact I have, therefore how much responsibility I have. I understood through the hard way that I can’t, or want to initiate any large project before I know how to lead myself constantly and know how to navigate my own energy with grace. It was a painful great lesson that showed once again that Human Design is not at all about what I know, it is about how I behave, and it takes time and dedication until fundamental behavior changes, therefore I have to be patient, although it is hard for the mind!

A bit before my partner and I started to build up rutin and create roots where we live, the global pandemic came, and I felt the inner calling for self-confirmation and inner confidence even stronger, there was no outer frame to support or provide trust, all I had was my inner authority. I understood that I needed to dive into the deep pain and suffering that I experience on a daily basis, as the outer chaos was just reflecting on my inner chaos, I saw how much ignorance there is still within, and as well in my intimate relationship. I wanted to meet and to touch deeply the wounded child within me, I didn’t know how to do so? How to change from the source? but the call was there.

I started to go to an energetic healer and after half a year with her, my partner and I broke up. We had 3 years of extreme transformation in a very fast time, we were 2 powerful, stubborn Manifestors, that had much in common but also different ways to walk. Then I realized how hard it is, to start the path of Human Design deconditioning and cultivate an intimate relationship at the same time, my body could not hold the amount of new information and be healthy at the same time. I am grateful that I learned what I am really capable of, and what I am not, how the mind wants things to be, and what the body really needs.    

THE FIFTH 

I moved to the small little village where I grew up. I felt like I needed to be close to family, to be supported, and have quiet. I also was asking to meet my core patterns that cause suffering in my intimate relationship and find the way to my inner home. During that year, I went to all kinds of emotional, physical, energetic amazing healers that supported me and guided me to feel the deeper layers of my body and to come to the beautiful, light, love the energy that I am over and over again. I needed to dedicate all of my resources to healing Because I was broken, tired, as so many things in my life changed since I met Human Design, inside out I had to take time to digest it all, to give space to have discovered. I kept the Human Design teaching on a low fire now, because I had no motivation and energy to lead, and also I needed to let go of everything I believe in, so I could feel ME – with no extra explanation, so saying also goodbye to Human Design was a way to see what is real to me? And what are just a pattern and another way of mind to show me that I am worthy of love because of it?

Ending this year showed me many new faces of what it means to live my design, and I have collected many tools and approaches to meet my body. I feel many things were left behind too, and the way I see and live Human Design is way more clear and clean to me. Now I see Human Design as my personal initiator to the deep healing process of the self, it is the door opening, and at the end of this year, that was stormy and challenging I could feel that a very thick layer was removed, and something very subtle and gently started to show up, it is happening very slowly, and it is still fragile and vulnerable, feeling like a newborn. So now I  make sure to keep the right conditions in order to allow the healing process to continue, to expand in its time. I learned that self-care is the only ground for self-love, and it needs to take shape in all aspects of life, and all the time, I learned to use my willpower to take care of what my body and soul really needs before anything else. Now, finally, I feel the patience not to skip steps on the way of progress, and knowing that I have to pay a very big price if I happen to listen to the mind.I am proud of myself for not giving up surrendering time after time to an unexplainable force that is calling me for self-love. 

Starting a new year…

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I know it is a seven-year cycle, a seven-year cycle. I can see the difference, and how many things have changed for me. Year after year I am getting a new meaning, and a new layer of embodiment, that only time can expose. Only life trajectory can expose. There is no choice. I never did this process, the process did me, and it still is.

I did not choose Human Design, it took me, it ripped me apart, and it’s building me up again, time after time, while I am just watching all of it happen. Yes, I use the word “I” in order to communicate the story to you, but every time it is just more obvious that there is no “I” in all of it there is just the process that is being observed.

Let’s see where life will lead me? 

I wish you all good luck on your journey, patience with where you are, kindness in your heart, love for everything that comes your way, the recognition that only time will expose the unfolding story of life through you. 

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My experience with the undefined sacral

My experience with the undefined sacral

The undefined sacral is a very interesting topic for me to share about. Over the years I discovered so many layers of wisdom and pain within this center.
I grew up in a house with a generator mother and brother. Both my father and I are Manifestors and of course, have undefined sacrals.
When I was told that I’m not here to work, I could not believe how deep this sentence goes, and I started an ongoing investigation of what “work” really means to me?
And if I’m not here to “work”, what am I here for?
 
Sacral Rehab
 
In the first two years of my Human Design experiment, I felt I was passing through a complete “sacral rehab” as I like to call it. I was reducing work, physical activity, interaction with people, all I was longing for was just time on my own while doing nothing, hanging around with, myself, or going crazy, but surely learning to be with whatever is and I managed to do so. To maintain my needs with really little work, to make space for my own, to spend most of my days floating in my own bubble.
Now I understand that cutting away from the world was the relatively easy part, and that actually the real sacral rehab is just starting! What do I mean by that? When I had no excuses, no outer distractions, no physical work that demanded much of my attention or time, then I had to meet all the thinking patterns, pain, memories, dark places hidden in the undefined sacral.
I remember that one of the most powerful thoughts I had is “ life is happening outside, around people in constant activity. If I’m not there I’m not alive”.
 
If I’m not working and producing, meeting with people, who am I then?
I felt confusion, self-doubt, loneliness, fear, and disorientation, while I allowed myself not to be available.
I knew I was passing through a very deep transformation. Every day I discovered a little piece of my real energy, every day I discovered a sacral addiction. I could recognize it in the physical body and mental body. I remember being very tired and getting exhausted easily. I remember how weird it felt to be so young yet so tired!
But for the first time in my life, I did not try to solve it, thinking that something was wrong with me. I knew I wasn’t sick. I knew that I was healing from one of the most powerful conditioning we have as non-sacral beings.
 
Wisdom
 
After 2-3 years,  I discovered new energy rising within my body, I felt like the first part of the rehab was over, and the resting and investigation became a wisdom resource. My main questions became how to channel and navigate energy correctly? How could I be efficient and organized enough to use my beautiful life force?
I have energy because I’m alive, because I’m here, and my energy is indeed special and different, and I have to treat it like that!
I learned to be attentive to all the things that give me energy, and all the things to take my energy away: food, people, working space, inspiration input, physical activity, resting time, physical environment – I saw everything through the lens of what gives me energy and what takes away the energy?
 
I didn’t feel bad anymore saying no, setting my boundaries, having enough sleep, working hours that were fitting for my physical condition.
I feel like I started to master the art of quantities, which would increase quality. I know there is still a long way to go, but I feel my body is cleaner and clearer every day. I don’t experience burnout anymore. I recover fast. I feel vital and inspired more than ever.
And I’m looking forward to using this energy and to keep on expanding.
I also know that it didn’t happen in one day. I had to go through many days of emptiness, tears, facing a lot of my fears.
Now I see the sacral condition as a source of pure wisdom. All the undefined sacral beings are possessing this beautiful precious gift, which is handling energy correctly, efficiently, and maximizing quality.
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Getting a critique as a Manifestor

Getting a critique as a Manifestor

Let’s start with a little story, a few days ago I had an emotional confrontation / issue with a person and I felt it was accurate and needed, and profound. It was not easy to express it though it felt necessary in order for things to develop in the relationship.

After the conversation was over, I got a rebound for that person. I was told that the talk was good and it was spot on but the way I opened it, the first step of opening it up, the way I started the conversation was shocking and aggressive. I guess something in my voice was radical, not subtle or sensitive enough?  My first reaction to the critique was: :” What!? look at what I brought us, look at the impact I give us here. look at the emotional truth that I share with you. Nobody can do it for us!” 

Then I kept on listening inside. I discovered that actually, I was feeling the not self-anger from the Manifestor wounded inner child that felt not appreciated. 

Then I let this feeling sink into my body and I let everything be as it is. I was crying a bit. Then I understood that this person is actually teaching me to be a better Manifestor.  This person is teaching me that if I want to touch the hearts of people, If I want to bring the correct impact and really initiate people from a loving place,  then I need to learn from the rebound that I get, from the critique that I get back afterwords.  

It is not easy as a Manifestor,  because I feel I don’t want to be controlled, being told what and how to do. It is true that I don’t need to take all of the critiques, I can choose what I take in and what not.  What is relevant and  waht is not relevant. I believe a relationship between people is something I grow through and with it. 

 Especially as a Manifestor, I live in this closed and repelling aura, sometimes people have the feeling that they cannot reach me, they cannot tell me anything. Maybe I got used to the fact that nobody dares say anything to me as I am “Bar”,  this creature that cannot be touched, but then when people do say, it can be painful because I am not used to it, though nowdays I deeply appreciate that because I also want to evolve.  I also want to learn and get closer to myself and others. I want to open my heart. I also want to be loved by other people and to show my love and be vulnerable.  

So Manifestor’s critique is important. Can you see what is your state in ,moment that you receive one?, how open are you to receiving this critique?  It may be painful. It might not be so casual to hear critiques, because so many people are going away from us and being repelled by this aura.  When people do come and say a critique I think it is valuable to take a moment and listen.

Maybe not in the same moment I can understand how valuable it is, but maybe over time I may take it in my way. If I want to make an impact, if I want to reach the hearts of the people, I would like to be open to what comes back and how?

 I believe most Manifestors want to create an impact that is beautiful, inspiring and that brings the right change, to initiate from love, so critique is part of the process. 

But I know that for me as a Manifestor,  receiving critique, and feedback, and rebound, it is not always going to be easy. Though I see it as a necessary step, in order to evolve as a Manifestor and as a person. 

Conflict, arguments or disagreements, sometimes are making me stronger and they are making me more aware,  also making me softer. They demand from me to ask deeper questions and not just to take things  as they are. Saying: ”I am like this, I am initiating like a bulldog!” but actually to say:” No, I can refine myself. I can see where I am wrong, I can be wrong.  It doesn’t mean anything about the person that I am, It just means that I am a human being, I can be wrong as well as a Manifestor and I can be powerful and wrong.” 

 When the Manifestor with the energy of the king or queen, untouchable, puts his/her head down for a moment and says; “ I’m sorry I didn’t see that.  Thank you for showing me that. I think it is an example of being a creature with a lot of inner true force and humility at the same time.

I hope it can contribute to your own process as a human and as a Manifestor.  

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Human Design – The concept and the absence of Maia

Human Design - The concept and the absence of Maia

A friend once asked me: “Hey, Bar, what are you doing?” And then that friend started analyzing this and that, and I replied: “I just do what I do.”
 
And this is a state, which is interesting to me because we live in this world of the Maia, where we analyze everything. The personality is documenting every moment in our life. But then there is the consciousness of the body. The body doesn’t need any words. It’s just here, it has no need to describe what is happening, why it’s happening, no need to have any references to the future or the past. For me, opening this document to just write to you is the simplicity of what I can be. I can just start writing and I don’t need to understand why I’m doing it or what is the topic that I’m going to share, and why I’m sharing it with you. It’s just that I am here.

It’s funny that us, humans, or our mind thinks that we need reasons in order to do or not do something. And for me, the process of following Human Design, in the beginning, started as a mental trip. I thought I would be happier, I would be more of something. I thought I needed something and knew how it worked. And it’s funny because now it has brought me to the basic level of just being me. I am just me. I am. And there’s everything in this “I am” -ness: there’s fear, there’s the mind, there’s the body and there is this and that.

But it feels like there’s nowhere to go with all of this, whereas before I felt like I needed to go somewhere or to improve, or change, or adapt. The mind wanted all of those realizations to happen, while now, especially in my process of going on the roof, nothing needs to be changed. Nothing. What I feel, what I think, what I have or don’t have doesn’t need to be changed. And within this, paradoxically, there is a constant change.
This is the illusion of the Maia: there is a fact, which is the body, the fact that I am writing, that my blood is streaming, the fact that you can feel my illusion through words, and then there is an invention, the personality that’s inventing our reality and concepts. We invent words, we invent everything that we experience. The body just is. It’s not having any concept or any terminology to what it experiences. And then we are the fiction, the illusion, the combination between the body and the personality.

Now I don’t even realize that I’m writing about this. To have this body and to have this invention, which is the personality, and to have the illusion that we are in the Maia is all a big illusion. Money, food, and thoughts are all elusive. It’s so funny that we, human beings, are taking it so seriously. I took it so seriously, too. I thought that being alive was such a serious thing, that one had to achieve something! Well, actually, it’s as serious as breathing in and breathing out. It’s so simple! It’s funny that education and things around us are making us think there’s a goal, that we need to get somewhere, that we need to have more money or children, or a better house, or this or that. We don’t need any of that! It just happens.
I must say that Human Design has served me to talk the way I talk, to feel the way I feel. Human Design has established order in my internal and external worlds. Human Design has labeled things for me so I can relate to them. But when I label the inner and the outer world, then, actually, it dissolves completely.

It can be compared to listening to music or reading poetry. You can analyze word by word, sound by sound, but in certain moments the sound is fading and you just hear the music, you don’t analyze the instruments. When you are reading poetry, in certain moments, you don’t read the words, you just feel the poem, you just see the flow of words together and they lose their sense. And I feel this is something I’m experiencing right now. I experience the Maia, but I also experience the absence of Maia. I experience the word itself, I experience the concept of the words in the Maia: “me”, “you”, “love”, “food”, “dog”. I experience the concept of what a dog is in the Maia, but at the same time, it dissolves.
Here we come to the essence of being One. So it’s seeing the process of verbalizing things and giving words to things and having things as a concept. But then one step afterward there is nothing. It’s just nothing. We as humans are constantly balancing these steps: reaching terminology, reaching construction, and then if something happens, we go beyond the concept. For me, this is a very interesting state.
 
As I am writing, I don’t try to understand if you understand what I’m writing or if it makes sense at all. It’s just something that is coming out of me – whatever. And I hope that we as humanity can reach a point of just living in that space, where we know that words and concepts don’t have so much meaning, that Human Design doesn’t have so much meaning. This or that doesn’t have so much meaning. It’s just for the sake of the game. We are just playing. It’s just a game. It’s just an illusion of being alive in the Maia.
I like when things are appearing and disappearing. It would be funny if more people could see the concept and be the concept, and at the same time could just say: “Hey, it’s not really happening. It doesn’t really matter if there is a concept and if we agree on the concept. It’s just for the sake of playing.”

I would love to take you to the essence, to that moment, where you don’t really care if Human Design exists or not. This is where I am right now. I don’t really care if Human Design exists or not, I don’t really care about this or that. I teach this and that, but I don’t really care if the concept itself works. It’s just a concept. I use it. So if you’re on this path in Human Design and you’re exploring your own way, I really wish for you to be able to take the boat of Human Design across that river and just leave the boat. Leave Human Design and just live it.

Maybe it’s going to happen to you. I mean, for me it just happened. I was so involved in Human Design and still am, in a way. But I took it so seriously. It was all the life there was for me. And now you can tell me it doesn’t work or it doesn’t exist and I will say: “Yes, okay. I don’t really care. I don’t really care if you believe in types or not if you care about the gates or not. I don’t. I don’t really care.” It doesn’t mean that I don’t see the concept or that I can’t speak the Human Design language. I just no longer have this attachment to knowledge. Who cares? This body will dissolve anyway.
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Creating / Working Space

Creating / Working Space

*Was taken from a creation course for Manifestors, but can fit all.
 
I am very careful with the word working because as Manifestors, we are not here to “work” and there are a lot of strange connotations with the word working; that it should be an effort, that we need to put extra force, and to be active all the time. So, I will take the context of working into another dimension, which is Creation. But everybody is familiar with the term “Working Space”. so let’s call it Creating/Working Space.
So basically, space where I create. Which is it? How do I feel there? Is it supporting my creative state? Is it helping me to produce? Is it inspiring for me? Is it bothering me? What triggers my senses in the place where I sit and create?
 
Of course, there are a lot of places where inspiration can come; on a daily walk, when I drink my coffee, when I am having a conversation with my partner. Inspiration can appear everywhere, but in the end, I have to sit and write, sit in front of a computer, or where I can record a video, so I am asking myself, what does my Creating/Working Space look like? feel like?
 
And how do I deal with it? What do I mean when I say, “deal with it”? I mean how much attention am I actually giving to my Working Space. Some people like to have plants in their working space, some people like a beautiful painting, some people are very sensitive to the smell of the room, or the amount of light that gets in. So, I am asking you, what is important for you in your Creating/Working Space?
Because eventually, when I create content, I create my course, I create my publicity, whatever I create, people feel consciously and unconsciously, how comfortable I am, and how much I resonate within my content.
 
So, if I record a video I am cold, if I write a text and I am hungry if I do not like having my working space disorganized and I create when the space is messy, everything is the frequency and everything is felt through my creation. So, although I am behind a computer and I hold your camera in a way that people do not see my legs and so on, everything is felt.
 
We are a sensory being, so I am asking you, what is good for your sensors? For your visual sensory? For your physical sensory? For your taste? Maybe you like to drink something before you start producing, or maybe not, brushing your teeth, who knows? How is the sensory of the smell applied in your working space? All of those little aspects are raising the awareness for you to be conscious of the state from where you create.
 
And sometimes we have habits which are actually pulling us away from this very fluent expression, from our Manifestor Gift, and we are not aware of them: oh, ok, I leave the dishes on my table, my chair is not so clean, and the smell in the room is more or less, but it’s ok! I am kind of used to it! So, I am putting your awareness on it and asking you: Is it really ok? How would you like to be?
 
If you could now design an amazing Creating/Working Space. What would be in it? Will it be completely empty with just one candle? Will it be stuffed with many quotes and inspirational music? Will it be outside in nature where you can see the view? How would you create your Creation/Working Space? Eventually, people feel it, and you feel it.
 
This is the concept of creating Working Space: to invest energy, attention and time, as well money, in your Creation/Working Space, because very often we want to receive. We want to receive more clients, more jobs, more money, more inspiration. But what do we do in order to receive all of it?
 
How much money do I invest in my working space? To buy a new table, a new vision board, new pants, maybe a new program for the computer. How much energy do I really put in the place where I create? And this is for me a very important aspect because nowadays, we have the phone, we have the computer, we have WIFI. There is a feeling that we can work from everywhere; while traveling, while being on the road, while being in the living room, in our breakfast.
 
But I am saying: wait a minute if I want to create something that has quality, that has depth, that shows my wisdom, that so-called forces me to dive in and take out my natural gifts in a way that is possible to see and perceive on the outside, it needs a container.
A container for me, where I can sit and say: ok, enough of outer distraction, now inner resources and creation for my business. Not everywhere, not all the time, not whenever I want, not, by the way, the opposite! I intend to enter into my Creative/Working Space, I prepare the space, I make it sacred, I make it holy for me, I make it holy for me, and welcoming for me, and inviting for me.
Because I believe that my clients, and the people that are going to pay for my products and services, deserve this kind of attention. They deserve me to be available in all of my senses in order to serve them. And I truly believe in this exchange between frequencies, which is the frequency within my creation, this is what I will receive, people will feel it, people will sense it. So, what is the container in your Creating/Working Space?
 
I am keeping on asking you in order for you to contemplate on the container that you really need that supports you, that empowers you, to create as yourself, and not take it for granted, because today we have phones, and we have the speed of action, we actually ignore a lot of details, we ignore the transformation that the body needs to pass through in order to really produce something for a long term.
Everything seems so instant, fast, and at the moment, but actually, if you look at companies, if you look into big projects, people who have succeeded in their life, there is a lot of investment there, in time and attention, and people think about all the little details of their offices. There is a lot of preparation in all levels when you want to create something of quality.
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4 Aura Types Creation & Business Deconditioning Manifestors

The non-sacral beings: Manifestors, Projectors, Reflectors. How can we live on the mundane plane without being burnt out?

The non-sacral beings: Manifestors, Projectors, Reflectors. How can we live on the mundane plane without being burnt out?

The truth is, we live in a world of generators – the bubbling energy of the sacral. Naturally, a mental question arises: “How do I make money? How do I earn my living? I don’t have the energy to work or I think I have it, but then I end up burnt out and exhausted, dead and sick.”
The beauty for me is that we all have the life force, we are all alive and we all have a body that takes us perfectly in space and takes care of us. From my perspective and through my experience over the last years, we all have a gift: the gift of a Projector of guidance through its channels profile and cross, the gift of a Manifestor of Impact through its channels, profile, and cross, the gift of a Reflector of reflection through it channels profile and cross. And we are here to be aware of that gift, to use that gift efficiently.

Our energy and life force channels are our resources for income and stability on the material plane. What I see is that we are here to know what our gift is, how our channels operate, and to follow our strategy and authority. By doing that, we receive feedback from life. However, what’s happening is that instead of using that gift efficiently, creating a business that is based on that gift, knowing where to invest the energy, how to be efficient, and not get burnt out, we just try to be like generators. I certainly did try to be like a generator. I tried to work many hours and thought that only if I had worked hard and all day long, I would have achieved whatever and be okay on the material plane. What happened was basically the opposite. I realized that as a Manifestor, I needed to initiate from emotional clarity using my channels and to understand that this is why people come to me – because they are asking the frequency and the quality of my channels, profile, and cross in their life.

In my case, it’s the 35-36, when I share my emotional experience, the 21-45, when I speak about materialism and management of energy and money, the 20-10 when I speak about my own awakening. This is why people come to me, this is the thing that is always available for me. And each one of you -Projectors, Reflectors, Manifestors – have this as well in a different constellation. And people come to you because of this life force.As the 6\2 profile, the natural spiritual gift of the 2 line, and the life experience of trial and error becoming personal wisdom with the 6 line. And the cross of Separation that is investigating how separation can lead to unity eventually?

The joke is that it’s not an effort for you to be who you are. It is an effort for you to be who you are not. It is an effort for you to act as a generator. So my little advice is for you to get to know your channels, profile, and cross, understand how they work, and understand who you are not.
Give more energy and more focus, more emphasis on who you are through strategy and authority, through contemplating and pondering and living your channels, profile, and cross. And see the channels, profiles, crosses which ones are not yours and how you are not here to act on what’s not yours. I believe it’s possible for each individual to have their individual business, or being part of a business based on their life force, using their life force in constellations and groups, and partnerships perfectly.

I’m reminding you that we are not here to take care of the material plane. We are not here to worry about the material plane. We are not in survival mode anymore. We are in a state of developing emotional awareness, and emotional awareness needs time and patience.
From my perspective and from my experience, this is possible. Through our individual channels, profile and cross, through our unique bodygraph we can create a unique business, not a copy-paste business. And it will not even feel like a business – it will feel like “I am just doing me”. My writing here is not me thinking that I need to advertise something or get something. I just enjoy writing this, I enjoy inspiring you through Human Design. It is my passion. 

So what is your passion? What is your life force? How do you use it correctly? Of course, this can work for generators as well, but for non-sacral beings like Projectors, Reflectors, and Manifestors it’s even more important because we really have no energy to waste.
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Creation & Business Manifestors

Manifestor – My Direct Impact

Manifestor - My Direct Impact

As a Manifestor, I have this moment when I go on stage, where I “perform”, where I give my direct Impact. It can be in our 1:1 session, it can be when I teach, it can be when I lecture, it can be when I create a book, a text, audio, video, whatever….it is when I am on the stage of life and I “perform” and nobody is cutting me.

It is a one-way street; I do my show, I do my Rock, I do my Pop, I do my music out there, exactly as I do right now. I sit in my room, it is wintertime, and I talk. I talk without thinking, I do have the subject but I allow my body physically to transmit you something.
All humans have this capacity, just transmitting information in different ways, delivering, channeling, you name it. And the Manifestor and his channeling, is giving a very direct impact, and the moment I allow things to pass through me, this is my direct Impact.
 
It is not like posting something small, just saying one sentence to somebody, or just having a chit-chat on the side. I am talking about a massive time when I allow myself and I give myself space, to transmit, to let things pass through, my direct Impact. The moment when I speak when I let things go, I am not in conversation, I am not in a negotiation, I am not in the question-and-answer format, I am just in the answer format. It does not mean that I know exactly what I am about to say and how is about to say it, but I allow things to pass through me and see. Once Manifestor feels this song, this Rap, it is irreversible.

I enjoy recording my courses because I have the gift of sitting in my room and learning my direct Impact. I sit and I talk. I talk to you,. I talk to myself. I talk to life. I let the energy pass through me and to show me the hidden places within myself.
As we know, we have the conscious and the unconsciousness, and the unconscious goes out only when we are out of control. If you sit and plan what you are going to say, and how you are going to say it, and what you are going to do, this will be your conscious part. When you allow yourself just to be and to say whatever to say :”I improvise, I go through it with out knowing how”, then you will discover many hidden places within yourself. And you can see it only when direct Impact is present.

And many Manifestors, we are afraid of this direct Impact. We afraid to take all the space for it and say yes, I am going to talk now, and nobody will stop me, I will create myself the platform and the stage to do so.You will see, by time, this is your real Gift, this is how you Impact, by not looking to the sides, or backward, just going front by saying “I am going to do this” in actions, words, in interactions, in creation, flow, to be in the flow of oneself. Yeah, and it is risky, and it feels unsafe sometimes, and maybe stupid and disorganized, but you are present in that moment. You feel the frigidity of life, and at the same time, the solidity that can exist at the moment, through your direct Impact.

So, “my direct Impact” is the essence of just seeing how your creation is taking shape in front of your eyes through your voice and through your physical actions, and especially for Manifestors, it goes through the voice. For a lot of humans, it goes through the voice, but for Manifestors, as we have undefined Sacral and we have a Motor connected to the throat, our life force is presented through the expression of action and through our voice.

You probably have heard Ra, or other people that lecture and they are in the flow of speech, they don’t think, they don’t try to make sense, they don’t search for anything. It is exactly like dancing, it is exactly like being born, you did not do anything for that. You can master it also in your direct Impact and to reveal to yourself many sides that you are not aware of.
And this direct Impact is the great mirror that you can have, you can see when you push too much, you can see when you are holding back, you can see your sense of humor, you can hear your fears because you let go. You are not busy with grammar and articulation, and trying to amuse people, you are being you, and you give your direct Impact. And this is why people pay you or come to you, for this kind of amazing energy that you carry and that you allow transmitting through you.

Manifestors can be so innocent. We do not know how powerful it is to hear the Manifestor Rap that is opening the ocean, that is splitting mountains into two, that is storing something, to be a starter, to be a pioneer, this is a hell of an energetical job because you have to break through and transmit through you, such a change, it happens through the stars that are touching you and something passes through, but your vessel, your body needs to be able to contain it.

Therefore I am asking you to be able to give your direct Impact, and not for two minutes, not only saying a sentence when a friend is asking you something, but for 10, 20 minutes, 1 hour. It is an ecstasy feeling, and people can remain shocked, not because of something you say or the content of it, it is due to your frequency; your Manifestor frequency that is building, that is starting something, that is destroying something else, this is a direct Impact.

Can you love it, to embrace it, to honor it, to practice it, to dare to go with it? to speak out your voice, your Manifestor Gift, this is your direct Impact, do you know this flow? Do you know this song? Do you know the unstoppable you? That can just go without thinking. Do you know this frequency? And if you don’t, are you willing to search for it? Are you willing to cultivate it? Are you willing to appreciate it?
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Centers Manifestors

Am I trying to change the other instead of focusing on my own trip?

Am I trying to change the other instead of focusing on my own trip?

I want to talk about relationships and Human Design. The mind can be a trap. A trap that can make us look at the other. We look at others and try to analyze them. We can focus on the other instead of our own process.
 
Lately, there have been a few parents asking me about their kids and the first thing that I tell them is, “focus 100% on yourself, then you benefit our kids the best”. It’s not easy to focus on ourselves. And It’s easy to look at the other. And yes, it’s true that some of us are transpersonal. Some of us are projectors and some of us are made to see the other and the needs of the other. But it’s a subtle line between putting all the focus on the other through the knowledge of Human Design and focusing on our own process using the other as an inspiration.
I see myself falling into this trap over and over again and I just want to offer this advice as a quick reminder; First I master my own body. First I master my own masterpiece and the way I make decisions. First I see the way the mind is running my life. First I see the way I am conditioned, my pain, my suffering, my memories. Only then I am able to see the other as they truly are.
 
It’s a long journey. It’s possible that a lot of our relationships will transform when we come into the Human Design experience. Things will adapt and take a different form. We know we can’t fix the other. we can’t change the other and we are not here to do this. It doesn’t matter how ‘good’ we do Human Design. How good we ‘know’ Human Design and we understand the constellation of the other person. Each one of us has its own trip, its own journey.
 
The only thing we can do is take care of our own body, our own frequency. Any attempt to try and change the other, to explain the other how it should and can be, it’s not our job! – Life will take care of it!
 
Explaining Human Design to someone else can happen. We can support someone, we can guide, wE can make an impact. But I want to remind us to focus on our own trajectories. We have our own trajectory and can let life take care of the rest. The best way to really support another is to be oneself. To be who you are. To be fully loving to your own design.
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Centers Manifestors

How do I see and experience the sacral world through my undefined sacral now?

How do I see and experience the sacral world through my undefined sacral now?

I would like to share with you about the sacral conditioning.In Human Design we have Manifesting Generators and Generators which both have the generator Aura. They have an open aura, an enveloping aura. They also have the sacral center defined, the bubbling life force that is actually making this planet move, the life force for creating and action.
 
Then we have Manifestors, Projectors, Reflectors and they are all with undefined/ completely open sacral center.
In the beginning of my experience I was told I’m not a Generator and that I am here to take care of physical resting.
I remember at the beginning I had a lot of conflict being around generators, really I was afraid to be around them and afraid to be exhausted and not to know when enough is enough.The first two, three years of the deconditioning process, it was for me like running away from the generator world, because I knew I could easily feel exhaustion and tiredness and could fall into overworking and burnout. So I was very careful about the generator world.
Trying to make sure that I am sleeping alone and that I am not too much around generators. It was conscious rehab from the generator frequency.
 
Then what happend is that over time, I became settled into my emotional authority and into my Manifestor aura then I could just be who I am even around generators. I actually could benefit from their aura, I could benefit from the beautiful sacral energy they contain.
It is a switch that I see, my body understands time after time that I am not a generator therefore I can enjoy what they give and provide through their energy without becoming it and over ride my needs and capacity.
Before meeting Human Design I was so conditioned to be a generator, I tried to keep up the pace. I tried to act as a generator and respond as a generator. When I slowly became aligned with my form,through strategy and inner authority I could step by step learn just to enjoy the sacral life.
 
I could enjoy their freshness, excitement, and passiveness. They have a certain passivity which is kind of inspiring for me to see. I can enjoy their care, sexuality, and the way they treat food, physical action and move from one activity to the other.
Because I have an undefined sacral, actually I am here not only to enjoy the sacral energy but also to learn about it , as I am also here to be the tech support of the generator world, to provide solutions and efficient pathways.
I realised that if I am keeping myself away from the generator world all the time I am actually not learning what I need to learn in order to develop myself and also support them and understand them.
Now when I am coming into the generator world I love it. I feel like being washed by the generator energy is a tantra practice for me. It is to move in the amazing dance of Gaia – mother earth.
 
I feel I know better how to surrender to the generator world and to environments when there are a lot of generators and I am not losing myself so easily within it and I know better the quantities within interaction, it can be an experience of a full bliss.
So if you are a Manifestor, Projector or Reflector I really recommend to you to take a look at this conditioning and be wise about it.
Enjoy the investigation and see how along the way you evolve?.It is a constant transformation.
This is the real fusion that I appreciate in Human Design, once I come in touch more and more with my frequency with my body it doesn’t really matter who is the type that is in front of me.
It does not matter which gates or channels or centers are defined or undefined.
I am just living the human experience with that person, I am just receiving information and giving information.
This is for me the beauty of being alive and awake in the body, I can simply enjoy exchanging energy without repressing, withholding or judging it.
 
Eventually each quality in our bodygraph has this gift and potential to receive something that is beyond what we know and can even express.
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Manifestors

Informing & Voice Frequency

Informing & Voice Frequency

Manifestors, informing is the moment when I actually bring my intention to the world. What I am about to do. I communicate my actions. my needs. my movement in the world. Through expression. Through vocal clear expression. I inform. I give information. I take the inside of me and I make it a form for others – bringing into form. But this thing, informing, without the right, correct voice frequency to me does not mean a match. Because it’s not only about being correct and saying “OK, I’m going to do this or that”. It’s about using my body and the frequency within my body as an instrument to tell my truth. To talk about my intention. To talk about my motion.
Sometimes I find myself as a Manifestor saying – “yeah, informing it is easy – just say it’’, but does informing resonate as I talk in my body? Sometimes not and then the consequences are a bit strange and I don’t know why people look at me strangely, or I might meet resistance. Or maybe people didn’t hear me and they kept on going with what they did.I ask myself why is that?
 
Because basically, it’s not enough to inform. For me, it is Inform + voice frequency is that makes the difference in creating impact. Talking while I feeling my body from within. Feeling my feet, feeling my belly, feeling my heart, feeling my head, feeling all the structure that is carrying me. Feeling my inner authority. Feeling my Manifestor aura as speaking. As the art of words.
I hear Manifestors telling me that they did inform, but nothing happens. And their mom keeps telling them what to do or asking questions. I hear Manifestor telling me that they did inform their boss about this and nothing changes and more examples like that…And for me, it’s not all about informing. It’s about HOW you inform.
 
Everybody can sing and repeat the lyrics, right? But not everybody can express their truth through the lyrics. And for me, this is what it means to inform with voice frequency. It’s to give the right information, what I’m about to do, what is my intention, what I’m heading for, with the vibration of my body. So if I am not in my body, if I don’t feel grounded within myself, my informing will be poor, just empty words to space.So both of them together, they are the real informing for me. The art of speaking, talking, communicating, and the art of transmuting, taking out the frequency within the vibration of my body. Both of them create a clear frequency of what I am and who I am now, and what I want to communicate in that moment.
 
And as a Manifestor, it’s very important to know how to talk. How to express my words. How to feel my body when I talk. To do this Manifestor rap, this song, this lecture, with my heart, with no fears. Because eventually, we are, Manifestors, in definition a motor connected to the throat. So when I speak correctly, I actually stream all this life force from my motor to my throat. From the defined centers, from the wisdom of the undefined centers to my throat – into expression, Manifestation, and action And in that moment I become a real artist. A real creator. Through informing. Through my voice frequency. informing is forming a creation. my voice frequency is the vibration that passes through those words. And this is so powerful and so beautiful.
 
I encourage you dear Manifestor whenever you talk, whenever you’re informing, check your body. And if you did inform and something went a bit awkward, go back and ask yourself “can I say it again within my body, within my frequency, a special vibration in my body and I am clear, sharp, and loving?”. Because for me, there is a big difference. If you have ever played or danced or practiced any art form, you know that there is a big difference between just doing the “thing” or completely being there as a performer. Feeling the body in every single moment, in every single word. Because the cords are cords but how do you play them? How do you dance the movement? How do you sing? How do you draw? It’s the same thing with informing. How you give the message outside within the frequency of your body, as a unique frequency, while you allow yourself to be unique, be who you really are, fearless and human, this what makes the difference. And this, only your body knows. Because of words, everybody knows words everybody can talk. But not everybody knows how those words sound within your body. With your voice frequency. Within your unique filter of love, as a Manifestor at this moment. And this is what I mean by informing and voice frequency.